I'm currently sitting in a 7 to 10pm tax law class while a rock (metal?) concert is being held in the building's courtyard. The prof is reading provisions from the Tax Act while bass shakes the classroom and some guy is yelling in the background. Huh.

(Also, 7 to 10pm classes suck. I'm hungry, sleepy and the caf is closed. Although tonight, I think that they have beer and hot dogs for the concert...)

This Tuesday provided a beautiful goal feast by Sweden beating San Marino with 6-0 and Germany 6-1 against Azerbaijan. Talk about fucking over the opponent with a tank. Though next month won't be as easy with Sweden playing against Holland and Germany meeting their old rivals Turkey. Would love to see Özil score against them;)
Mellberg got a red card for a potentionally dangeorus faul, which didn't even touch the guy's leg! Hopefully the protest will get through or we're kinda fucked. Still worried about Per, Germany's gentle giant, the eye fracture could take some time to heal...and our Disney prince Arne is still recovering from his spinal surgery;_;
I just love seeing how selfless the german players are on the pitch, not like f.ex Italy or England witch consists of a bunch of divas wanting the ball for them selves. Cacau's pass to Klose is just one example of the teamgeist they show .

Have been down with a tiresome cold the whole week. Guess that's what you get from spending time with the family. Visited my second cousins during the weekend. Had a bit of family drama before hitting off there which ended with sis giving mom a bitch slap, mom actually returning it and both of them fighting like little kids during the whole car ride. Why does it feel like I'm the only grown up female in the family.

Anyway, missed one of my seminaries and two lectures during the week so I'll have to bug my seminary partner for notes. And book in some coffee dates so that we can start working on our assignment asap. Hopefully someone in the group will set up study groups before our exam, I can't be the only one in need of it.

 

Feeling super teenage-y and angsty and very argharghargh.

It is probably because I am very unprepared for the Conference and the upcoming days. I have no idea what to expect, or even what I want to get out of this Conference. And being away from SG without internet is a bit worrying (in case I have FMS to do) I still haven't completed my CPCM assignment although the bulk of the work is done I suppose. The workload for the next few weeks is quite icky- damn you case studies.

If I can be honest with myself, with people, part of me just wants to slack away the next few days and just rest instead of having workshops to go for and people to interact with. Maybe it's the burden of expectations that I place upon myself, or even something within me that questions whether I can truly be who I am (if I do know who I am) around a particular group of people.

I don't know what I want anymore and this confusion is tiring and exhausting and I'm trying to explain all this and people just don't get it. Yes, it was my choice to go, no one forced me but I would like a little bit of understanding that I HAVE WORK TO DO AND I REALLY CANNOT STAND DOING LAST MINUTE WORK!

Don't want to leave on such a note - so for the next few hours before I leave, I will go watch Glee and make myself smile and then prep myself for this. The way God works I am pretty sure the Conference may be what I need to deal with the residue issues- need to get rid of that part of me that is resisting that.

I'm truly exhausted. May this restore and refresh me.

Be back 12th evening.